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Saturday, 1 August 2026

SaturdaySsmple: Drawn n by theSea by Jeanne Davies breakfast tea,

 

Lady of the water

On that day, the torrents arrived without warning, causing ditches to rise and many of the tiny country roads to become impassable. Rain flung itself like knives at the cloudy windows, hammering down on the old Police station as though it was building a new roof. The wind whipped and howled, rattling the old metal window frames and punishing the ancient brass door knocker until it finally crashed onto the doorstep; it’s ringing reverberating beneath the stone floor. The winter darkness closed in at four which made storms like these seem endless.      

I’d expected rain in that part of the world but had no idea how dramatically and relentlessly it could fall. My journey to these remote parts had been a long and arduous one, including a new career move; but I was determined to leave the past behind me and make a new start. I was really looking forward to retreating to my little rented cottage at the end of my shift. As isolated and lonely as it was, I knew I could sit comfortably with my Kindle before the reassuring wood burner.

At precisely five o’clock, the old station door suddenly flew open, allowing in a deluge of water, born on the wind, which saturated the lobby. A woman appeared from the darkness in a shiny black oil-skin raincoat, wearing a matching southwester hat and red wellington boots. She marched over to the reception desk and stood directly in front of me, her drumming finger nails on the wood sounding like raindrops. Just behind her appeared a scruffy old Airedale terrier who, after a vigorous shuddering, succeeded in shaking a shower of rain droplets from its coarse curly coat, before sitting quietly by the door.

“I’m having trouble with my front door key,” she said. “It doesn’t work in the lock.”

I opened the case book in front of me and started to write the date, asking politely for her address and other details.

“Look, isn’t there a male on duty here as I’m not sure a female is quite up to this task?” she said impatiently. “I’m obviously locked out of my home and my husband isn’t due back tonight. Tula and I have been walking for hours and both of us need a hot bath … can’t someone just come and open the door for me?”

She glared at me before ripping off her hat to allow her long amber hair to cascade across her wet coat and shiver down her back. Her features were refined, with porcelain skin and the darkest of sea green eyes. She could have just stepped out of a John Waterhouse painting.

“Of course,” I answered nervously, as any green-horn would. “I just need to take a few details first, madam.”

She groaned and gazed impatiently up at the ceiling, crossing her arms in an exaggerated sulk. I thought it strange that there were still strands of liquid trickling down her forehead like worms and that water was seeping from inside her raincoat onto the floor. Clearly not wearing fully protective rainwear I observed self-righteously. 

I quickly jotted down as much information as I could extract from her … Delores O’Brien … without angering her any further. I then retrieved our lock equipment whilst quickly heaving on my waterproof boots. I shouted out for Mavis, the telephonist, to man the desk until my return. As usual Mavis was filing her nails with the phone glued to her ear, whilst having a conversation with her husband about what he’d like for tea.

The dog jumped quickly onto the rear seat of the car whilst Delores slid into the passenger seat. Her perfume was unusual; a combination of sweet musk and countryside heather.

I was still a novice to the country roads and, despite the rain having suddenly ceased, found it difficult to navigate through flooded tree laden lanes in the dark, especially as the car windows were misted with dog breath. I increased the heater blowing system to high, but Delores sarcastically suggested I’d do better to put my blue light on to guide the way.

“You’re new here, aren’t you?” Delores asked, without looking at me.

I nodded and told her I’d recently moved from the city to start this new job; in truth, I needed to restart my life.

“A man, I suspect,” she detected sourly. “Why else would a pretty young thing like you come to this god forsaken place!”

Ahead we could see Pump Cottage, which was built in flint and had tiny lattice windows peeping shyly over a neat privet hedge.

“Well, there are some lights on!” I said optimistically.

As the car pulled up to the gate, Delores’ head suddenly jerked toward me as she grabbed my arm, gripping it tightly. Her deep green eyes focused intently on mine.

 “Run, Jenny,” she whispered, her face erupting into a deep frown. “Get away from this village as quickly as you can … it’s a frightful place and you’ll be as good as dead if you stay here.”

I felt like a rabbit startled by headlights. Embarrassed, I stared at the floor where a pool of water was welling up in the footwell around Delores’ red wellington boots. She released her grip and continued looking straight ahead again. After a confused silence, I grabbed my lock equipment and headed for the front door, prompting the security lantern to flick on.

As any good bobby would, I rang the doorbell first before fiddling with the lock. My heart skipped into my mouth when the door suddenly flung open and a small blonde woman with rosy apple cheeks appeared. She looked at me puzzled; then looked beyond me towards the car.

“Oh, thank you officer … you’ve bought Tula home!” she said cheerfully.

The little dog, now almost dry from the aggressive car heating system, trotted arthritically past the woman and into the welcoming warmth of the cosy cottage.

“She’s been gone for days this time, poor lamb. I’ve no idea where she goes, but at least she returns to her home eventually.”

“But there’s this woman …,” I began, gesturing back to the car; but Delores had disappeared  from the passenger seat.

“I must give her a warm bath,” the woman went on. “Thank you so much again, PC Davies,” she added sweetly, scrutinising my badge under the porch light. She gently but firmly closed the door, leaving me standing bewildered on the door step.

The car was still fragranced with Delores’ perfume but there was no sign of her, just a pool of water in the footwell where she’d previously sat. I searched the front garden and a nearby copse with my flashlight, calling her name into the wind; but there came no response.

By the time I got back to the station it was well after six and Amanda from the night shift had taken Mavis’ place at the desk. She’d been reading my notes.

“So, it was Delores, was it then?” she said with a grin.

Before I could answer she suggested I sit down and take a few deep breaths.

“You look very pale, Jenny,” she said.

For no apparent reason my body began to shiver and shake, and my teeth started to chatter loudly.

“I’ll put the kettle on my dear,” she said, pushing me down into the seat and patting her hand on my shoulder.

As the kettle began to purr, Amanda began to relate a story which still confuses me to this day.

“Delores was a city girl like you Jenny,” Amanda began. “Her husband ‘dumped’ her in a country cottage when she became pregnant. He had no time for her really. She was so lonely, poor girl … missed all the hustle and bustle of the city you see and sadly none of her so-called friends ever bothered to visit her. She wasn’t interested in making any new friends here of course; we were beneath her, you understand.”

She proceeded to make a jug of coffee and landed two mugs on the table.

“The one thing she did like about this place though, were the long country walks. Yes, her and her little dog, Tula, were often seen trekking in remote places – she was an artist you see; funny lot they are!”

I clutched the steaming brew, feeling the warmth bite at my cold palms.

“Apparently, she’d sometimes walk all day long … loneliness can do that to a person, you know. She didn’t seem at all excited about having a baby either.”

“What happened to the baby?” I asked, burning my tongue on the scorching liquid.

“It died with her I’m afraid.”

It took a long time for those words to sink in. I suddenly felt light-headed as the events of the evening began to spin around in my head.    

“Apparently she was walking around one of the deep quarries,” went on Amanda, sipping her coffee. “When a violent squall came over and they think she was swept in. But talk has it,” her voice lowered to a whisper, “that she’d tried to take her own life many times before, poor dear.”

A vision popped into my head of the sad, pregnant Delores sinking gently into a deep pool, her auburn  hair floating briefly like a lily on a pond.

“Tula spends most of her days in the churchyard lying on her grave. Obviously, Frances has been very kind to the little dog and adopted her when she bought Pump Cottage; but Tula still pines for her Delores.”

We finished our coffee in silence. Although I’d stopped shaking, I felt freezing cold deep into my bones and totally bewildered.

“So, what you’re basically saying then, is that I’ve just met  a ghost?” I said as everything began to sink in. “How many others have seen Delores?”

“A few people say they have seen the woman with beautiful red hair over the years, but no one has ever spoken with her. It seems that not everybody can see her. They usually only notice the dog; you’re obviously a sensitive soul … or psychic maybe? Every October fourteenth on the anniversary of Delores’ death, little Tula turns up at the station door, just like she’s done for the past five years and whoever is on duty returns her to Pump Cottage at the end of their shift. I’ve never seen Delores myself, but there are many stories about her around here.”

“But one more question Mandy … how did Delores know my name?”

She paused for a moment, seeming puzzled.

“Easy dear … she saw your name badge!”

But when I glanced down, my badge just said PC J Davies … no mention of Jenny.

I did leave the village eighteen months later. I only stayed on in the hope that I’d meet poor Delores again, but it never happened. When out and about doing my duties, I occasionally visited her abandoned grave and, as usual, little Tula lay curled up there, barely visible amongst the long unkempt grass.

However, on the next October fourteenth, I’d ensured I was on duty again. At about five o’clock there was a strange scratching noise at the door. I opened it anxiously, allowing a sudden gush of wind into the station. It was thick with the fragrance of Delores’ perfume but there was no sign of her. Then in from the blackness trotted Tula and the fragrance gradually faded. At the end of my shift, somewhat disappointed, I dutifully returned Tula into Frances’ safe hands at Pump Cottage.

I moved back to the city and became part of the Metropolitan police force. I didn’t miss the bleakness of the landscape, nor the recurrent gunmetal skies. I met my soul mate, Andrew, and we married within a year. It was a busy life and I’d almost forgotten about my ghostly experience, when a flyer came into the station with the normal influx of mail. I snatched it off my assistant’s desk and a tingle of excitement whizzed down my spine … it was a photograph of the lovely Delores. I took it home that evening to show Andy, who I felt had never quite believed my eerie little story. There was an exhibition of her paintings at a gallery nearby and I dragged my dubious spouse along to see it that weekend.

I was mesmerised by Delores’ rich dark oil paintings. You could track the course of her life from her busy London high society life with elegant parties, where her paintings depicted women holding cocktails and cigarette holders, to her confinement in the bleak countryside of North Wales.

There was one particular painting in her collection, a bright water colour that immediately brought tears to my eyes. It was of Pump Cottage, where her key wouldn’t work in the door that day. The front garden was full of summer blooms and an abundantly flowering deep pink rose climbed in an arch over the doorway. In the garden was an old Silver Cross style pram and beside the handles sat Tula, upright and protective on a little wooden stool.

 My hands instinctively went to my belly and I cradled my small bump as I realised that, if it hadn’t been for dear Delores’ haunting visit, I’d still be stuck in that god forsaken place.

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About the Author

Jeanne Davies has always enjoyed writing fiction and her children grew up with ad-lib stories (sometimes scary!) at bedtime. In recent years more and more of her short stories have been published in anthologies, including some award-winning flash fiction and even poetry. One of her stories was recently included in an anthology published in the USA, with another being taken for their next publication.

 

 

 

 

 


Saturday, 3 August 2024

Saturday Sample: Drawn by the Sea by Jeanne Davies

 


Introduction 

Most of these stories are written whilst walking for miles in the countryside with my Labrador companion at my side. The beauty of creation and all forms of nature always stirs something in our psyche, whether we acknowledge it or not. To be surrounded by fields, trees and sky in a magnificent green space or wandering along the seashore with the serenity and chaos of the ocean, can inspire and give us peace.

 

Jeanne Davies

 

Over the years we have published several of Jeanne’s short stories. Indeed, at the end of this volume you will find featured some of the books that contain her work.   

Some of the stories published in this volume have also appeared in our anthologies and others are brand new. This is exactly what we like in a single author collection. It’s always good, too, to work with an author we know we can trust.

You will find here a mixture of themes and genres. There are brushes with the supernatural, an exploration of human emotions, history, love and loss, and also a firm sense of time and place. 

You can really appreciate the inspiration Jeanne refers to above as you read these stories.

Enjoy!

 

Gill James, editor   

Lady of the water

On that day, the torrents arrived without warning, causing ditches to rise and many of the tiny country roads to become impassable. Rain flung itself like knives at the cloudy windows, hammering down on the old Police station as though it was building a new roof. The wind whipped and howled, rattling the old metal window frames and punishing the ancient brass door knocker until it finally crashed onto the doorstep; it’s ringing reverberating beneath the stone floor. The winter darkness closed in at four which made storms like these seem endless.      

I’d expected rain in that part of the world but had no idea how dramatically and relentlessly it could fall. My journey to these remote parts had been a long and arduous one, including a new career move; but I was determined to leave the past behind me and make a new start. I was really looking forward to retreating to my little rented cottage at the end of my shift. As isolated and lonely as it was, I knew I could sit comfortably with my Kindle before the reassuring wood burner.

At precisely five o’clock, the old station door suddenly flew open, allowing in a deluge of water, born on the wind, which saturated the lobby. A woman appeared from the darkness in a shiny black oil-skin raincoat, wearing a matching southwester hat and red wellington boots. She marched over to the reception desk and stood directly in front of me, her drumming finger nails on the wood sounding like raindrops. Just behind her appeared a scruffy old Airedale terrier who, after a vigorous shuddering, succeeded in shaking a shower of rain droplets from its coarse curly coat, before sitting quietly by the door.

“I’m having trouble with my front door key,” she said. “It doesn’t work in the lock.”

I opened the case book in front of me and started to write the date, asking politely for her address and other details.

“Look, isn’t there a male on duty here as I’m not sure a female is quite up to this task?” she said impatiently. “I’m obviously locked out of my home and my husband isn’t due back tonight. Tula and I have been walking for hours and both of us need a hot bath … can’t someone just come and open the door for me?”

She glared at me before ripping off her hat to allow her long amber hair to cascade across her wet coat and shiver down her back. Her features were refined, with porcelain skin and the darkest of sea green eyes. She could have just stepped out of a John Waterhouse painting.

“Of course,” I answered nervously, as any green-horn would. “I just need to take a few details first, madam.”

She groaned and gazed impatiently up at the ceiling, crossing her arms in an exaggerated sulk. I thought it strange that there were still strands of liquid trickling down her forehead like worms and that water was seeping from inside her raincoat onto the floor. Clearly not wearing fully protective rainwear I observed self-righteously. 

I quickly jotted down as much information as I could extract from her … Delores O’Brien … without angering her any further. I then retrieved our lock equipment whilst quickly heaving on my waterproof boots. I shouted out for Mavis, the telephonist, to man the desk until my return. As usual Mavis was filing her nails with the phone glued to her ear, whilst having a conversation with her husband about what he’d like for tea.

The dog jumped quickly onto the rear seat of the car whilst Delores slid into the passenger seat. Her perfume was unusual; a combination of sweet musk and countryside heather.

I was still a novice to the country roads and, despite the rain having suddenly ceased, found it difficult to navigate through flooded tree laden lanes in the dark, especially as the car windows were misted with dog breath. I increased the heater blowing system to high, but Delores sarcastically suggested I’d do better to put my blue light on to guide the way.

“You’re new here, aren’t you?” Delores asked, without looking at me.

I nodded and told her I’d recently moved from the city to start this new job; in truth, I needed to restart my life.

“A man, I suspect,” she detected sourly. “Why else would a pretty young thing like you come to this god forsaken place!”

Ahead we could see Pump Cottage, which was built in flint and had tiny lattice windows peeping shyly over a neat privet hedge.

“Well, there are some lights on!” I said optimistically.

As the car pulled up to the gate, Delores’ head suddenly jerked toward me as she grabbed my arm, gripping it tightly. Her deep green eyes focused intently on mine.

 “Run, Jenny,” she whispered, her face erupting into a deep frown. “Get away from this village as quickly as you can … it’s a frightful place and you’ll be as good as dead if you stay here.”

I felt like a rabbit startled by headlights. Embarrassed, I stared at the floor where a pool of water was welling up in the footwell around Delores’ red wellington boots. She released her grip and continued looking straight ahead again. After a confused silence, I grabbed my lock equipment and headed for the front door, prompting the security lantern to flick on.

As any good bobby would, I rang the doorbell first before fiddling with the lock. My heart skipped into my mouth when the door suddenly flung open and a small blonde woman with rosy apple cheeks appeared. She looked at me puzzled; then looked beyond me towards the car.

“Oh, thank you officer … you’ve bought Tula home!” she said cheerfully.

The little dog, now almost dry from the aggressive car heating system, trotted arthritically past the woman and into the welcoming warmth of the cosy cottage.

“She’s been gone for days this time, poor lamb. I’ve no idea where she goes, but at least she returns to her home eventually.”

“But there’s this woman …,” I began, gesturing back to the car; but Delores had disappeared  from the passenger seat.

“I must give her a warm bath,” the woman went on. “Thank you so much again, PC Davies,” she added sweetly, scrutinising my badge under the porch light. She gently but firmly closed the door, leaving me standing bewildered on the door step.

The car was still fragranced with Delores’ perfume but there was no sign of her, just a pool of water in the footwell where she’d previously sat. I searched the front garden and a nearby copse with my flashlight, calling her name into the wind; but there came no response.

By the time I got back to the station it was well after six and Amanda from the night shift had taken Mavis’ place at the desk. She’d been reading my notes.

“So, it was Delores, was it then?” she said with a grin.

Before I could answer she suggested I sit down and take a few deep breaths.

“You look very pale, Jenny,” she said.

For no apparent reason my body began to shiver and shake, and my teeth started to chatter loudly.

“I’ll put the kettle on my dear,” she said, pushing me down into the seat and patting her hand on my shoulder.

As the kettle began to purr, Amanda began to relate a story which still confuses me to this day.

“Delores was a city girl like you Jenny,” Amanda began. “Her husband ‘dumped’ her in a country cottage when she became pregnant. He had no time for her really. She was so lonely, poor girl … missed all the hustle and bustle of the city you see and sadly none of her so-called friends ever bothered to visit her. She wasn’t interested in making any new friends here of course; we were beneath her, you understand.”

She proceeded to make a jug of coffee and landed two mugs on the table.

“The one thing she did like about this place though, were the long country walks. Yes, her and her little dog, Tula, were often seen trekking in remote places – she was an artist you see; funny lot they are!”

I clutched the steaming brew, feeling the warmth bite at my cold palms.

“Apparently, she’d sometimes walk all day long … loneliness can do that to a person, you know. She didn’t seem at all excited about having a baby either.”

“What happened to the baby?” I asked, burning my tongue on the scorching liquid.

“It died with her I’m afraid.”

It took a long time for those words to sink in. I suddenly felt light-headed as the events of the evening began to spin around in my head.    

“Apparently she was walking around one of the deep quarries,” went on Amanda, sipping her coffee. “When a violent squall came over and they think she was swept in. But talk has it,” her voice lowered to a whisper, “that she’d tried to take her own life many times before, poor dear.”

A vision popped into my head of the sad, pregnant Delores sinking gently into a deep pool, her auburn  hair floating briefly like a lily on a pond.

“Tula spends most of her days in the churchyard lying on her grave. Obviously, Frances has been very kind to the little dog and adopted her when she bought Pump Cottage; but Tula still pines for her Delores.”

We finished our coffee in silence. Although I’d stopped shaking, I felt freezing cold deep into my bones and totally bewildered.

“So, what you’re basically saying then, is that I’ve just met  a ghost?” I said as everything began to sink in. “How many others have seen Delores?”

“A few people say they have seen the woman with beautiful red hair over the years, but no one has ever spoken with her. It seems that not everybody can see her. They usually only notice the dog; you’re obviously a sensitive soul … or psychic maybe? Every October fourteenth on the anniversary of Delores’ death, little Tula turns up at the station door, just like she’s done for the past five years and whoever is on duty returns her to Pump Cottage at the end of their shift. I’ve never seen Delores myself, but there are many stories about her around here.”

“But one more question Mandy … how did Delores know my name?”

She paused for a moment, seeming puzzled.

“Easy dear … she saw your name badge!”

But when I glanced down, my badge just said PC J Davies … no mention of Jenny.

I did leave the village eighteen months later. I only stayed on in the hope that I’d meet poor Delores again, but it never happened. When out and about doing my duties, I occasionally visited her abandoned grave and, as usual, little Tula lay curled up there, barely visible amongst the long unkempt grass.

However, on the next October fourteenth, I’d ensured I was on duty again. At about five o’clock there was a strange scratching noise at the door. I opened it anxiously, allowing a sudden gush of wind into the station. It was thick with the fragrance of Delores’ perfume but there was no sign of her. Then in from the blackness trotted Tula and the fragrance gradually faded. At the end of my shift, somewhat disappointed, I dutifully returned Tula into Frances’ safe hands at Pump Cottage.

I moved back to the city and became part of the Metropolitan police force. I didn’t miss the bleakness of the landscape, nor the recurrent gunmetal skies. I met my soul mate, Andrew, and we married within a year. It was a busy life and I’d almost forgotten about my ghostly experience, when a flyer came into the station with the normal influx of mail. I snatched it off my assistant’s desk and a tingle of excitement whizzed down my spine … it was a photograph of the lovely Delores. I took it home that evening to show Andy, who I felt had never quite believed my eerie little story. There was an exhibition of her paintings at a gallery nearby and I dragged my dubious spouse along to see it that weekend.

I was mesmerised by Delores’ rich dark oil paintings. You could track the course of her life from her busy London high society life with elegant parties, where her paintings depicted women holding cocktails and cigarette holders, to her confinement in the bleak countryside of North Wales.

There was one particular painting in her collection, a bright water colour that immediately brought tears to my eyes. It was of Pump Cottage, where her key wouldn’t work in the door that day. The front garden was full of summer blooms and an abundantly flowering deep pink rose climbed in an arch over the doorway. In the garden was an old Silver Cross style pram and beside the handles sat Tula, upright and protective on a little wooden stool.

 My hands instinctively went to my belly and I cradled my small bump as I realised that, if it hadn’t been for dear Delores’ haunting visit, I’d still be stuck in that god forsaken place.

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Sunday, 23 May 2021

Forever Young

by Jeanne Davies

milky Ovaltine

This story was entered for the Resolutions anthology. Although ti was declined it is highly commended.  

He collected Liliane at three. She wore the lime green velvet coat they had bought together many years previously. To him she looked as beautiful as ever, like a delicate faded flower with silvery hair as wild as Medusa’s. Their scruffy Jack Russell, Tula, greeted her lovingly as they were reunited, bringing an innocent smile to his wife’s face. Ray took her hand gently, escorting her to the car before tenderly enveloping her in the seat belt. Her fragile faced turned towards him as she asked if she was going home. How would he ever find the words to tell her? Today, like on many occasions before, his resolution was to try to explain, but he needed to find the right moment.

     Glancing sideways at her as he turned the engine on, he remembered the excitement of the drives they had together when they were courting. In those days he had a Honda CB550 with a sidecar, and she dressed like Audrey Hepburn with her headscarf folded neatly into the nape of her neck, and huge black owl-eyed sunglasses. The motorbike engine was too loud for them to converse, so throughout the journey they would communicate with nods and hand gestures. At the end of any trip, Liliane would alight daintily, tugging at her scarf to release her golden curls which tumbled down her back in a swaying curtain. An inch or two taller than Ray even in flat shoes, she always took his breath away and still did to this day.

     Today they drove slowly through the Hampshire countryside which was vibrantly painted in all its autumn glory of colours; neither said a word. The dappled light highlighted her age spots, once tiny flecks of girlie freckles across her nose, which surrounded her heliotrope eyes in a butterfly shape. He leant across to point at a striking giant oak tree, solitarily stationed like a warrior in the centre of a horse field. She stared at it for some time before gesturing back with a nod of her head and a weathered smile. They pulled over to the side of the road to see the horses, three mares and a foul; her eyes suddenly illuminated with enthusiasm. The naivety of her child-like smile brought tears forward which he promptly dismissed. How could he tell her these outings were numbered?

     In the early days of the illness, she had told him that there were moments when she felt alone on a beach where the tide had gone out completely, taking all her memories with it. Every day he had felt her mind slipping away until one day she was completely gone. As the disease progressed her fear turned into frustration and anger, most of it aimed at him because there was nobody else. He often suffered injury from her violent rages and many times she became a danger to herself, frequently leaving the house barefoot and turning up at the other side of the village with no idea who or where she was. Strangely she still remembered Tula’s name, but these days often referred to her as ‘the puppy’. The time eventually came when he had no choice but to put his dear Liliane into a care home, which made him crumble inside. Before long, the drugs they were able to administer in the home began to calm her, although by then she hardly recognised Ray at all.

    This little outing was all part of their usual Friday jaunt. Soon they would arrive at the coast, abandon the car in the seafront car park to walk across to Hayling Island. Here they would sit on a rickety old bench to watch the boats heading into the harbour for mooring, boats of many shapes and colours against the ever-changing skyscape. Ray covered Liliane’s legs in a car blanket, which Tula took as a signal to jump up. Ray’s hand fitted over Liliane’s as they gazed at the sun lowering in the sky, creating dark silhouettes of tiny, moored crafts outlined by the ocean. Twilight gradually persuaded the day to disappear. As tiny dots of light began expanding in the crimson velvet sky, they headed for Harry’s fish and chip bar, their eyes still wrapped up in the sunset as they watched over their tasty morsels being wrapped in white paper. The smell in the car was intoxicating. He could see her delight as she looked across at the warm parcel between them. He had been careful to hide the Estate Agent’s Sold sign in the front garden and hoped she wouldn’t notice how bare the house had become. Quickly switching on the lights in the house he led them into the parlour where he had previously laid the kitchen table for two with floral serviettes and two wine glasses. Ray took her coat to hang behind the door, carefully coaxing her to her usual seat at the other end of the table. He placed the cream donut he had bought that morning in the centre of the table, dividing it carefully into two. Her eyes were owl-like as they ate the fish and chips together, savouring every morsel with their glass of white wine.

     The television went on as they sat with their coffee and half a donut on the two-seater sofa. Tula crept up on to Liliane’s lap just like so many times before. He could not possibly tell her now; what would he say? This was just one day in his week that highlighted his lonely life, and he did not want to waste it … not for either of them. Ray knew this was his last opportunity to keep to his resolution and be honest with his wife, but inside he knew he would probably fail again.

     “But won’t mother want me home … won’t she be worried?” she gasped as they climbed the stairs together.

     Mrs Smith at the Care Home had become Liliane’s mother over the past four years, catering for her every need and keeping her safe and medicated. Even so, sometimes Liliane did not even recognise her.

     “She knows you are here dear and will be waiting for your return in the morning,” he said soothingly.

     Ray had previously ensured that all his packing cases were well hidden under the bed before taking her into the spare bedroom. He helped her into her pyjamas and stood by as she obediently swallowed her night-time tablets. Leaving the glass of water easily within her reach and the low-wattage bulb on in the bathroom, Ray tucked Liliane carefully inside the crisp white sheets before quietly turning the key in the lock.

     “Goodnight, sweetheart”, he whispered back through the door.

     When he woke Liliane next morning with her cup of tea, that old look of distrust and fear had returned to her eyes. But with gentle coaxing he persuaded her to dip her favourite shortbread biscuit in her tea; the fear slowly subsided and she rewarded him with a smile.

     They ate croissants and fresh orange juice in the conservatory before they belted into the car. After careful consideration, he had decided that his news would have to wait.

     “Did mother say it was alright for me to have a sleepover?” she asked as they drove away.

     He nodded. “Yes, of course, dear”, he sighed.

     Liliane’s life now consisted completely of living amongst strangers, with unfamiliar faces, in places unknown. His Oncologist was correct, there would really be no purpose in sharing his prognosis with his wife. The treatment had ended, and his hospice bed was booked and ready. He held her hand until it slipped away from him. She didn’t say goodbye but disappeared behind the plastic bubble light doors of the care home. Her lack of recognition had finally confirmed everything for him … she would not notice he had gone; she would continue to be forever young.

 

About the author

Jeanne enjoys creating stories and visiting other people's worlds and feelings. She's had many short stories, flash fiction and poetry included in anthologies and magazines in the UK and USA. Her first single author anthology Drawn by the Sea was published by Bridge House in 2020.